Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Here I am....waiting for a new life again :)

Long time since I blogged last. Probably coz I dont need such a 'let out' anymore or coz havent 'felt' too strongly about any stuff lately. Guess 1st reason is more justified, the 2nd is no where near the truth.
Have been too happy lately. Here I am doing what I wanted to do all these years- an MBA - and have reached my short term goal (could not find a better, informal phrase for this :( ) of being an i-banker in such a short time. Though not one yet, ppl here make me realize that I am. Would not deny that I love the feeling. Feels as if I ve not been this happy since ages. As i write this, I know am scared too. I know that I need to pray. Hope the decision of making my professional life doesn't screw my future personal life. I know I can never be a 'typical career woman' or a 'typical gharwali' in my life.

Since I havent written after comeing to XL, a little update on my life here. Life has been good. Havent made many close friends, but havent made any enemy for sure:) Finally getting to study finance n stuff (ya ya, I was a ghissu once upon a time). Have started ignoring acads a little after getting a decent internship offer. Trying to do more of other stuff that would help me feel good..which reminds me of last sunday. It was one of those awesome days when you feel that you ve done something worthwhile. Had gone to teach computer to these village kids and grownups. Wow, the smile and satisfaction they have on their face when they make a beautiful flower in 'paint' or write about their kids/husbands in 'notepad'- believe me its enough to make your day. You do not remember the quiz and the assignments to be submitted the next day. You just dont want to leave. Wondering whether I would ever have the courage to spend a large part of my life doing this...

On personal front, life is the same. Nothing has changed in these 5 months. Dont know if it ever will..The scepticism that has overtaken me since last year is bugging and painful. It isnt letting me move ahead.

Neway, will stick to the XL life description. Enjoying MaxiFair work these days, or rather these nights. Its 5 am right now and am so used to being up @ this hour, so used to bunking classes since SIP days:) Why do they have to keep marketing as a course, what cant it just be maxifair ;) Participating in various arbit competitions of various B-schools...doing real time pass...doing so much but feels that I still dont have time to do what I would love to..Given a chance, I would want to watch all the movies and sitcoms on the server, read all the books and stuff I can lay my hands on (excluding text books, including business world and newspaper), learn everything about MS excel(crazy i know :P) and fight for my lost infatuation..basketball. Life is awesome, and I am waiting for it to become awesomest, if something like that exists that is !

1 comment:

Chaitanya said...

U deserve every reason to be happy...

some points are quite connecting like

" I know i can never be a typical career woman or a typical gharwali in my life" .... actually this point is very well put .. and it resonates with most of us...

"want to learn about MS Excel"... :D though ppl call it crazy, still i am very happy to find that there are some other crazy ppl like me...

Got to know a few new things more about u ... keep posting... all the best